Unexpected

A sermon preached on Mark 10: 17-22, delivered during Wesley’s baccalaureate worship the evening before UVA graduation.

There are certain things we think we know.  Like what success after graduation looks like and the right path to achieving it.  Or how Jesus is supposed to act. 

So sometimes, when we come across a story like this one from Mark, we aren’t sure what to do with it.  Isn’t Jesus supposed to run after this man and make it easier for him?  Convince him he’s really the Way?  Give him one more chance?  Force him to follow?  It can make us uncomfortable when things don’t go like we think they will or should.

Maybe this is why so many graduation speakers sound alike and why those books you can buy for graduates also sound alike.  As a culture, we want to send you all out there with marching orders and a firm, believable, reliable path for getting exactly where we think you’re supposed to go. 

The problem with this is we often don’t know where we are going.  Or why.

While many of you were at the beach last week, light-writing and beach-combing, I was reading a book called Dirt Work by Christine Byl, a writer I was introduced to at the Festival of Faith & Writing I attended last month in Michigan.  Byl graduated from college with a plan to get a PhD so she could teach and write.  Her whole life had pointed her in the direction of academic life and indoor pursuits – the life of the mind, as it’s sometimes called.  There wasn’t a question in her mind about the goal.  But she wanted to spend a year or so taking a break in a beautiful place with her boyfriend before she dove back into the next degree.

So they moved to Montana.  And the plan started to unravel.  Or take shape.  Depending upon who you ask.

On a lark, Byl signed up late in the summer season to work on a trail crew in Glacier National Park.  These are the folks who repair trails, build walls, remove downed trees, and generally make hiking enjoyable for the rest of us.  There is little that had prepared her for this work.  She describes herself as 125 pounds soaking wet and she’d spent more time in libraries and in front of computers than she had using chainsaws or hauling heavy things.  Before the trail job, she hadn’t done much outdoors other than hike.

But like all good teachers, trail work showed her what she was missing.  Rather than seeing academics as higher and more desirable and manual labor as lower and less prestigious, she realized they had different things to teach and that she was in need of learning what the woods could teach, too.  The seemingly offhanded decision to join a trail crew late in the season ended up becoming the start of an entirely new education.  From the beginning, she knew she was on a journey but she didn’t know where she was headed.  Eighteen years later she’s still doing trail work.  The place, the people, and the work transformed her and showed her a new path.  Something completely unknown, unseen, and unexpected when she set out for Montana.

Unexpected, like Jesus giving the man what he really wanted and needed, though not what he asked for.  Mark tells us the man is getting ready for a journey and wants to nail down the unexpected – Here’s the list of all the commandments I keep now what else should I be doing?  I want to have my bases covered.  Jesus gives him something else, an invitation.  Come, follow, untangle yourself from the possessions that tie you down, live courageously and with transforming risk…  This is, of course, not what the man wants to hear.  He wants a list.  He wants tried and true.  He wants to have his expectations met, not overturned.  If he were walking the Lawn with you tomorrow he’d have one of those graduate books and a five-year plan up his sleeve.

Whenever I read this story I wonder what happened next.  All we’re told is the man went away sad and that Jesus let him go.  Did he sleep well that night?  Did he catch up with Jesus later?  Did he ask another rabbi the same question?  Did he write off Jesus as crazy and live the way he intended all along?

Maybe that unexpected encounter with Jesus bore fruit in the man’s life eventually.  Maybe not.

For the man in the story as we have it, he misses his opportunity.  For Christine Byl, she seized her opportunity and was seized by it.  She let it lead her on a path she had never considered – one that revealed her calling and her most authentic self.  She writes, “…I believe that the surprising turns our lives take can bring us to our unexpected selves” (Dirt Work, pp. xxi-xxii).

I hope your time at UVA has been unexpected and I hope at least part of that has been because of your involvement in the Wesley community.  Maybe being part of Wesley overturned Sunday school assumptions and easy answers, helped you form deeper community than you thought possible, rerouted your major and your direction from here…  Maybe it’s been as simple as the realization that the most important part of college wasn’t the college itself but what you did, who you did it with, and who you’ve become while you were here.

I have seen you take steps in the direction of your unexpected selves.  Keep going.

Count on the blessings of the unexpected.  Know that whatever paths you take – loopy roundabout paths or five-year-plan paths – God has surprises in store for you.  God will bless you with the unexpected over and over again.  God is not done with you yet.  And though you may come with only the patience for the answer you want to receive, God will give you what you need.  Every time.  In every place.  On every path.  The ones that lead into the woods and those that lead back out again. 

The God who met you here and transformed your college years in an unexpected place like Wesley will meet you on any path you chose from here – including the paths that seem to choose you.  You can count on that.

Thanks be to God!

Trying to Tell You Something about My Life

You know those songs that perfectly capture an era or a relationship?  The ones that take you back to that moment in a flash and you can feel who you were back then?  guitar headstocks

For me, one of those tunes is the Indigo Girls’ Closer to Fine.  Amy, Emily, and this song have traveled with me through many years, stages, and places.  But I every time I hear it I can remember singing I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paper and I was free, while still yearning for that paper.  For a certain group of my friends and countless others from my generation, that song is emblematic, galvanizing, community-making.  Name this song to one of us and we’ll tell you about the first Indigo Girls concert or where we were when that album came out.  With its iconic first line – I’m trying to tell you something about my life – the confession and the invitation begin…

 [Click here for the rest of the story at the National Campus Ministry Association blog.]

Dwell

A sermon preached on Matthew 3:1-12 and Isaiah 11: 1-10 at the Wesley Foundation at UVA.  (Due to icy weather last week we revisited the texts from the second week in Advent last night, for Advent 3.)  

carpenter's shop wood shavings

John the Baptist is attractive and repellant.  The Duck Dynasty guys wish they had beards as long and unruly as his!  He wears camel’s hair and eats locusts and warns everyone to repent – turn around, now!  He’s a wild visionary who’s made camp in the desert.  I find those images attractive.  I can picture him with a kind of charisma, speaking the hard truth people crave hearing, baptizing people and saying Wait it out.  He’s coming.

But he repels us, too, doesn’t he?  He’s way out past the edge of civilization, and hanging out with him seems a little risky.  Who’s coming after him, exactly?  And will it be someone as edgy and scary as John?  He seems especially angry with the Pharisees and Sadducees – how do we know he won’t turn on us next?

Then there’s the passage from Isaiah, which makes me scratch my head and ask where the parents are.  A child young enough to still be nursing is playing right over the hole of an asp?  Really?  Who thinks that’s a good idea?  And are we really supposed to believe wolves and lambs are going to get all snuggly with one another?  Cows and bears will go out into the field together to graze – on grass?  Lions will be satisfied feasting on straw?

Artists have depicted these mixed up unlikely scenes in religious art for thousands of years but they are still hard to imagine, aren’t they?  Are we meant to use these as guides to life in the future?  Or is this “just” poetry? 

We read about strange desert prophets and unimaginable peace between creatures we know to be natural born enemies – and we read this in Advent as we prepare for Christmas and as we remember and anticipate Christ’s promise to come again.  What does it mean to spend this season waiting?  To hear the prophet’s words and see the artists’ renditions and wonder if we are any closer to these promises being fulfilled than we were last year?

It’s easy to get confused about exactly what and who we are waiting on.  Lately Twitter and Facebook and the rest have been abuzz with tales of Pope Francis and his critics.  People who’ve given up on the church or been hurt by its scandals see in the Pope’s passion for the poor another way of being Christian.  It’s actually the original, Jesus-like way, but so many of us have done such a poor job of imitating him that many people no longer recognize this as “normal” Christian behavior.  In fact, some folks are so unfamiliar with the Jesus who was born to unwed, poor parents and spent his life overturning tables and expectations, that they fear maybe the Pope has gone astray somehow.

What are we waiting for?  Who is coming to be with us?

Here’s what I know:  it is never what we expect.  We, who like to put our faith in conservative or liberal, will be confounded.  We, who like to think we are getting pretty good at pulling up on our own bootstraps, will be surprised when we are lifted up.  We, who feel like failures, will find failure is one of God’s favorite materials to work with and transform.

The wolf shall live with the lamb, the leopard shall lie down with the kid… (Isa. 11: 6)

Bear fruit worthy of repentance.  Do not presume to say to yourselves, ‘We have Abraham as our ancestor’; for I tell you, God is able from these stones to raise up children to Abraham…(Mat. 3: 8-9)

It might be “just” poetry, but it’s interesting to me how specific and physical Isaiah’s images are.  We don’t hear about unicorns or ewoks – it’s known enemies like lions and lambs, cows and bears.  Real creatures we have seen with our own eyes – behaving in strange, “unnatural” ways.  Scary-attractive John does this too, out in the desert.  He doesn’t sit around looking “spiritual” and talking in vague unachievable non-physical ways.  He says prepare.  Turn around.  Bear fruit.  Don’t think you know where you come from so you’ll be fine.  See these stones?  Feel this water, be baptized.  Wait and watch for the one coming next.

Isaiah promises “the earth will be full of the knowledge of the LORD as the waters cover the sea.  On that day …his dwelling shall be glorious” (vv. 9-10).   God’s dwelling shall be glorious.  To dwell…to remain for a time; to live as a resident; to live in a particular place.  Not generally, euphemistically alive – living in real time in a particular place.  Like a stable in Bethlehem in the middle of a census.  Like Nazareth, amidst the sweet-smelling curlicues of wood in your father’s carpentry shop.  Like Galilee, hanging out with fishermen, feeding throngs of people with a few measly scraps of bread and fish.  His dwelling shall be glorious.  His dwelling.  His living in a particular place, in a particular body.  Jesus of Nazareth.  Fully human, fully divine.

We weren’t expecting that. 

Sometimes we still aren’t.  It’s a little too mysterious and unnatural for our imaginings.  How could God confine what’s God to a body like this?  Why would God want to get that particular?  This whole incarnation thing puts a real cramp in our tendency to want to separate body and spirit.  If God – the ultimate in Spirit – finds a human body worthy of dwelling in, who are we to question it?  Who are we to find human bodies less worthy?

Who are we to ask God to be a little less particular?  When Jesus said visiting the sick and imprisoned is the same as visiting him, he meant that in a spiritual way, right – we can pray for prisoners without visiting the prison and shaking their criminal hands, right?  We can love the poor from a distance, can’t we?  Isn’t it enough to give to the Food Bank without actually sitting down for a meal with our hungry neighbors?

We don’t get to have a “spiritual,” disembodied Advent or Christmas – or life.  Our job is to dwell in this uncertain, mysterious promise, to inhabit our imperfect maddening bodies more fully as places of divine presence and revelation.  Our calling is to look for Jesus in each face we see  — Pope, Palin, pauper, prince, people right next door…

The One we call Emmanuel – God with us – is always ready to be born and revealed in new ways in the midst of our lives and established routines.  And it’s never what we expect.  So we read strange poetry and listen to strange prophets and try to prepare.   

It’s an attractive and a repellant message.  It’s a promise that means no escape from here and now.  These bodies and this world were good enough for Jesus to dwell in and they are the things through which the Kingdom of God comes near.   

Thanks be to God!

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photo credit:  © 2008 Rob ShenkCC BY-SA 2.0

 

Thanksgiving in 272 Words

(An introduction and a sermon preached at the Wesley Foundation at UVA during today’s Thanksgiving  celebration.  Our scripture was Psalm 100.)

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Four score and seventy years ago President Lincoln gave the Gettysburg Address.  It’s one of the most remembered and quoted speeches.  Clocking in at a concise 272 words, it’s also one of the shortest.  Lincoln was half wrong when he said, “The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here.”  We remember his powerful words at least as well as we do the event of the battlefield at which he spoke. 

For the 150th anniversary of his monumental and brief speech, the Abraham Lincoln Presidential Library Foundation issued a challenge to write something to remember Lincoln or merely in the spirit of his Address, by writing it in 272 words.  Internet pastor circles picked this up and took it as a challenge to write sermons the same length.  This is why tonight I bring you the 272-word sermon…

Giving thanks is the first prayer most of us learn.  I’m so glad these are my parents…I love going to the park, thank you for this place…God is great, God is good, Let us thank God for our food.  Giving thanks is a gateway prayer for all others.

Some days we forget, too busy for thank you.  Some days our hearts are too broken to recognize what’s worth our gratitude. 

That first prayer, so easily arrived on our lips, takes more work as we age.   

So we gather at this table each week and pray together The Great Thanksgiving, reminding ourselves of the taste and texture of God’s good gifts.  With open outstretched hands, we receive.  We come as thankful guests, nourished by what we cannot provide for ourselves. 

This is the context for all other gifts, tables, feasts.  Jesus gathered with friends, took bread and wine, gave thanks to God, and fed them.  Do this in remembrance of me, he said.

At this table and the one on Thursday.  But also at O-Hill and even when there is no table.  What we do here helps us to recognize where, when, and how to do it other places. 

Until our thanksgiving is closer to those spontaneous childhood prayers – joyful, immediate, unedited.

I hope your feast is tasty and your family offers prayers and words of thanks together this week.  I hope you recognize at that table, an image of this one.  And I hope our feasting here helps you in every day to practice forming the words on your lips and in the deepest part of your heart:  Thanks be to God!

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photo credit:  © 2008 Tony Fischer, CC BY 2.0

Who’s in the Market for a Field?

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A sermon on Jeremiah 31: 1-3a, 6-15 preached at Wesley Memorial UMC during Family Weekend at UVA.

 I sit through a lot of meetings and read a lot of articles about The State of the Church.  As you may have heard, we are older, we are smaller, our buildings are in need of repair, and we aren’t as flush as we used to be.  I’m not seeking out these meetings and articles – they are hard to escape.  A vocal and vigilant group of church Chicken Littles wants to make sure everyone else knows the sky is falling. 

In a lot of the church we have decided the way to “fix” our problems is to frantically recruit young people, to become less building-focused, and to count everything.  Most of the angst and worry seems to be backward-looking – how can we have church like we did in 1958 when, if you wanted to fit in to polite society church is just what you did and there were fewer distractions like Netflix or Sunday soccer, and people had more time since only 1 person in the couple worked (guess which one? and everyone was in a couple)? 

             What if, instead of the articles and hand-wringing conferences about the dearth of young people in church, we the church took that missing group seriously enough to find out where they are instead?  What’s Sunday like for them?  Weekends?  Family life?  Why?  What’s spirituality like for them?  Tell me more about it.  Help me understand you.  And, what if we didn’t do this as a ploy to pull them “back” into church, but because it’s the kind of thing Jesus would do – seeking out the people overlooked or despised by the religious authorities and treating them as children of God, brothers and sisters…

            I can hear the Chicken Littles now.  But we don’t have time for that!  We need someone to lead the youth group now.  We need to build a better budget and those young folks are the workers now.  We don’t have time to sit around and listen to their lives – we were young once, we remember what it was like – and, besides, the sky is falling!

            Have you noticed how the most faithful, God-oriented moments in life are often the ones that, on the surface, make no sense?  Do you have some of those in your life?  In my own life, I once drove several hundred miles out of my way to see a guy I’d had only two dates with – and who ended up becoming my husband.  God calls to us across the strange terrain of long road trips and unexpected random acts of kindness and the seemingly strange last-minute switches of your major or you career.  Often these moments and decisions don’t seem like wise choices to the onlookers in our lives.

They can even seem foolhardy or wasteful.  Like trying to stretch 7 loaves and 2 fish to feed 5000.  Like leaving 99 sheep on their own in order to go find the one who’s lost.  Like standing on a hillside proclaiming that the meek will inherit the earth.

            Or, like buying real estate in the middle of a war zone.

            In a city under siege at that very moment, with the Babylonians pounding at the gates and about to conquer Jerusalem and capture its people, God instructs Jeremiah to buy a plot of land.  If ever there was Chicken Little territory this was it.  The sky may not have been falling but the walls were crumbling, the gates were giving way, and armies were on the move.  Jeremiah himself has been warning the people for 31 chapters by this point – warning them to turn from their idolatry and come back to the one true God.  Then, at the moment when all he’s been saying is in the process of coming true, God tells him to buy a field right in the middle of all that turmoil, chaos, and heartbreak. 

And God tells Jeremiah to put the deed in a jar so it will “last for a long time…  [because] Houses and fields and vineyards shall again be bought in this land” (32: 15).  It’s a bet on the future, grounded in the hope of God’s promise that even this sad and forlorn day is not the end of the story.  It’s also a metaphor for our hearts, upon which this promise has been written.  The fertile soil of our hearts will be purchased, developed, and rebuilt by God.

I think this is one of the most radical, hope-filled moments in the entire Bible….  To purchase a piece of land that’s already been captured, as you are about to be captured next – while proclaiming God is up to something good.  If we were to set it today’s world, it might look like a prisoner who studies for her GED and works on her resume even though she has 20 more years to go on her sentence.  It might look like a Syrian teenager applying to college with rockets overhead and gunmen on the corners.  It might look like a small church with a shrinking budget investing in people who aren’t members.

What a flimsy-seeming sign of hope – a slip of paper bought in a war zone.  Flimsy and vulnerable, like a baby born in a stable. 

This is the way God works:  with what seems small or meaningless or not quite enough – and with the long view.  Jeremiah had a deed but there was a long way to go before the houses and vineyards would sprout up on that land.  Mary had a baby but it was a long time before the world could see it had a savior.

This is the way hope works:  It’s about choosing to believe that God makes good on God’s promises and that we will never be left to our own devices. 

            The Chicken Littles may think the church has the deed to a worthless plot of decaying buildings and rundown property.  No matter what it looks like from here, the truth is God’s given us a field and a promise.  We don’t have to just wait for the vineyards to appear – we can help plant them.       

We can live in bold hope during uncertain times.  Hope is not the same thing as wishing.  Wishing takes us backward to the way things used to be or into our own imagination, where we concoct what we think would be a better future.  Hope, on the other hand, takes us into God’s imagination, offering a glimpse so we’ll recognize it when it gets here…a taste so we are hungry for it.  Hope means behaving now as if what God promises is already happening – because it is.

The vineyards and new houses are waiting for us.  Do you see them?  We can reacquaint ourselves with our neighbors, simply because they are our neighbors.  We can go, like Jesus, to where the people are and consider that perhaps we are the ones who need to change in order for the church to work.  We may be called on to spend the last dollar we have on a field in this war zone.  Or on taking a student to coffee when there is no time to waste and no line item in the budget for that kind of thing. 

I happen to work in part of the church where we are flush with young people.  I also happen to work in part of the church that relies on the rest of the church for support.  So, believe me, I understand the dilemma and I feel the pinch.  But I need to point out this obvious fact:  we do have some young people.  Excellent, passionate, faithful disciples who happen to be under 25. So while I do think we need to pay attention to who isn’t here and go out to them and learn about them and figure out how to be better neighbors to them….I also think we need to pay better attention to those who are already here. 

A few years back I was talking with our Wesley Foundation student president at the time.  She had been involved and in leadership at Wesley her entire time in college.  Because she came from one our district churches, that church was even involved in helping to bring food for Thursday night dinners – so they saw firsthand what she was up to here at UVA and they obviously supported campus ministry.  But she told me once that what she loved most about the Wesley Foundation was she could actually do things and lead things here.  She said, “At my home church they would never let me lead anything.”  They had a young, faithful, creative person who’d honed her leadership here in college but who wouldn’t have been asked to join the Trustees at her own church.  She hadn’t served her time to work up to that position.  She needed to pay her dues and listen to her elders a while longer.  That right there is a failure of imagination on the part of her church.  That’s a church that would rather believe in their own abilities to raise a few sour grapes in captivity than believe that God had already purchased a piece of land for a bountiful vineyard.

Let me be clear here:  we are all in this together.  We are all called to become better neighbors to those in our midst – not just to those in our pews.  Students and young people, you are not off the hook when the church’s imagination is impoverished and they don’t listen to your ideas or make you head of something the moment you arrive.  You are also called to invest in this strange war-torn piece of land, to seek out new neighbors.  Who do you see without seeing in your daily rounds of Grounds?  Whose name do you need to learn at the social hour after church?  Where will you invest with hope?

If I wanted to be crankier than I already am, I could spend a lot of time shooting down student ideas and telling them how we tried that once 20 years ago.  Or I could worry more about whether the church will continue to fund campus ministry. 

But I choose hope. 

The church will not look like it did 50 years ago 50 years from now – or even in 5.  And I think that’s a good thing.  God is doing a new thing.  God has a slip of paper with our names written on it and it’s more important and valuable than all that pounding at the gate and chunks of sky falling to the ground.  There is more to come.  God is not done with the church or young people or any one of us yet.  Just you wait for the next chapter!   And, while you’re waiting, how about asking the Starbucks barista what his life is like?  How about taking a student to coffee?

Thanks be to God!

Live Small

graduates on UVA rotunda steps_picture by melissa holmes

Tonight’s baccalaureate sermon for the Wesley Foundation at UVA, on Mark 14: 3-9.

I’m going to tell you the opposite of pretty much everything everyone else is going to tell you this weekend.

You have probably already heard and will hear again tomorrow that you are the best and the brightest, that it’s your job to go out there and make the world a better place, that you are the leaders now and it’s time to take the helm.  You will be told that the sky is the limit and your dreams should be big.  You will be told to make something of yourself – especially through your professional accomplishments.  You will be told to enjoy the places your lives will take you – especially when they are far away, glamorous, unexpected, and can earn you more money.  You will be told, as you have been so many times already, that the impressiveness of your résumé is how you are measured and valued.

I’m not going to tell you those things.  Because you are UVA people and because I know that you will do big, amazing, impressive, world-bettering things no matter what we say to you.  It’s part of why you are here to begin with.  You are high-achieving, motivated, conscientious.  You don’t need encouragement to be who you already are.

But you probably need a lot of encouragement to consider living small.

I don’t mean miserly, shut-in, cut-off, or inhospitable.  I don’t mean afraid and cowering.  Just small.  Humble.  In proportion.  Manageable. Close to the ground and centered around the people, places, and things you really mean to have at the center of your life.

Like Ruthie Leming.  She was the younger sister of writer Rod Dreher and they grew up together in rural Louisiana.  From early childhood, Ruthie’s world was that town.  She married her high school sweetheart, taught school, and raised kids there.  Rod, on the other hand, couldn’t wait to leave town for some place bigger, faster, more “cultural.”  He felt trapped in that small town and he never understood why his sister seemed so happy there.  Even content.

In his book about their lives, he writes:  “I had somehow come to think of her living in a small town as equivalent to her living a small life.  That was fine by me, if it made her content, but there was about it the air of settling.  Or so I thought” (The Little Way of Ruthie Leming:  A Southern Girl, a Small Town, and the Secret of a Good Life, by Rod Dreher, p. 194).

Then, in her early 40s she developed cancer and died within a couple of years.  In the course of her illness and during the weeks after her death, Rod developed a different relationship to the town.  By that point he and his family had moved around between Washington DC, New York City, and Philadelphia.  He was a widely-published writer, made a lot more money than his sister, and he lived in impressive, happening places.  But he realized during his trips home that he didn’t have any friends or neighbors in any of those places who would come take care of him if he got sick.  He witnessed the town coming together to support Ruthie, raising tens of thousands of dollars for her care, providing meals, watching out for her kids, and traveling back from places like California to be at her funeral.  He heard the stories of her former students, now teachers themselves, who said they would never have even finished high school if Ruthie hadn’t taken an interest in them.  And though the time was full of struggle and pain, his trips back home opened his eyes to what was missing in his own life and to what had been there all along in that small town and those small-seeming lives.  His epiphany was that Ruthie’s small life was bigger and deeper than he had ever grasped – bigger in some very important ways than his own well-crafted life.

Why am I telling you all this?  Your families here tonight will be pleased to hear that I am not trying to get you all to move back home and never leave.  But I encourage you to read the book (The Little Way of Ruthie Leming) and to think about what living a small life might mean for you.  As Rod makes sense of his sister’s death and their very different lives, he comes to terms with the fact that if he had never left he would have been bitter and always wondering.  He doesn’t come to the conclusion that his sister was right all along.  He had to take the journey he did in order to find his way back home – literally to Louisiana and his family but also to the kind of life God was calling him to live.

It’s not an either/or proposition, but graduation clichés and platitudes can make it sound that way.  Either you go “make it big” or you settle for something that pays the bills.  Either you make your mark on the world or you start a family.  Either you “use” your degree or you don’t.  Either you impress other people or you satisfy yourself. 

But it’s not an either/or choice between a big life or a smaller one that counts.  Some of your biggest most God-centered moments will not be televised or public or result in a bigger paycheck.  Some of the smallest-seeming moments will reverberate the loudest in terms of how you organize your life and live it out in the ordinary details of every day.

Jesus’ disciples protested and complained because they thought there was an either/or choice between big acts of justice – feeding the poor – and small acts of kindness – anointing one man’s feet.  Jesus doesn’t recognize this choice.  He says, You can (and should) help the poor regularly.  You have that opportunity every day.  But this opportunity is the one in front of you right now and it’s good, too.  She cared for me (vv.3-7).  He says, “She has done what she could” (v. 8).

We don’t even know her name.  It was an extravagant act but small, intimate, and fleeting.  Only a few disciples knew about it and even though we are still talking about it tonight, we don’t know her name.  If she were graduating tomorrow, people would advise her to etch her name into the jar of alabaster before she breaks it so everyone present will remember it better.  If she were graduating tomorrow, people would tell her to get more bang for her buck and organize an Alabaster Day on the Lawn or on the National Mall and have hundreds of people breaking jars and anointing feet all over the place in a synchronized and well-publicized movement.

She did one generous, personally-extravagant, but relatively small thing.  That is what Jesus noticed and praised her for and I suspect that at the end of her life, that moment was one of the highlights.  I suspect that throughout her life that moment was a touchstone that helped her make other generous, personally-extravagant, Christ-centered decisions.  It was small and, despite Jesus’ words, almost forgotten.  What was her name again?  But I am telling you, it was enough.

You are already on an amazing trajectory to do big, impressive, résumé-building things that I look forward to reading and hearing about.  You are also already enough.

What I want is for you to be on the lookout for the brilliantly small life, wherever you go next.  Be ready to get generous, personally-extravagant, and Christ-centered – even if hardly anyone else sees it and you can’t put it on your résumé.  Like you have been living here.  I know you have had mind-blowing classes, trips around the world, challenging internships, and incredible professors here.  I also know that some of your most important, memorable, reverberating moments have been the small ones.  Talking in my office or over coffee, offering comfort to a struggling first year, on spring break mission trips, in worship, trying to work out your beliefs in a hot topic forum, around the countless dinner tables, in late night car rides back to your dorm or on couches in the Cottage, in marathons or minutes spent in Study Camp…  You have done what you could.  You already know what the big, good, small moments can be.  Keep it up.

Thanks be to God!

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photo credit: © 2011 Melissa Holmes, Used with permission.

Praise, Palms, Silence, Stones

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Sermon on Luke 19: 28-40  | Palm Sunday

Here’s the thing about English majors:  we believe in metaphors.  I don’t just mean we like them or appreciate them.  I mean we believe in them.  In Franz Kafka’s story, The Metamorphosis, when we read about Gregor Samsa waking up one morning to find that he has transformed into a giant cockroach, we are physically unable to sit back from the story and analyze it “as if” he’s a cockroach.  We don’t want to talk about the person who “thinks” he’s a cockroach.  We want to go deeper:  what does it feel like and how did he know and will his family accept him if he opens his bedroom door?  We accept the premise – the metaphor – and everything else follows from there.

Don’t say I didn’t warn you.

When Jesus gets to Jerusalem, the place he’s been headed since the beginning, he sends disciples to procure a colt.  He rides the colt into town, amidst a throng of cheering, palm branch-waving people.  The crowd is throwing down cloaks on the road for his colt to walk on.  The excitement builds and the crowd starts shouting out about the miracles and wonders they have seen.  They reach back to the Psalms to praise him, saying, “Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!” (Luke 19: 38; Psalm 118: 26).

I imagine this scene as just shy of chaos.  The full press of crowds, the inner circle of disciples thrilled with the reception, thinking they are finally all getting the recognition they deserve, people shouting over top of one another, palm branches swaying and sometimes smacking people in the face.  I hear individual shouts that finally come together into this recognizable praise:  “Blessed is the king who comes in the name of the Lord!  Peace in heaven, and glory in the highest heaven!” (Luke 19: 38).  Everyone chanting this familiar poetry together in one booming voice.

It’s making the Pharisees nervous and a few of them get close enough to speak to Jesus over the roar.  They say, with concerned looks on their faces, Rabbi, you’d better tell them to stop.  This is getting out of hand here.  Please have them quiet down (v. 39).

And Jesus responds, “I tell you, if these [people] were silent, the stones would shout out” (Luke 19: 40).  In other words, Even if I shushed them and they all fell silent, these stones here on the path would shout out in their place.  Those stone arches into the city would shout praises.  The stones would take their place and continue the chorus.

He doesn’t say The crowd’s too big and I’ll never quiet them down.  He doesn’t say Who them?  But they are praising me and it sounds so gooood.  He doesn’t say anything about whether he could or would quiet them; he simply says that someone else would speak up.  The stones would cry out.

Ah, metaphor!  What is Jesus trying to say by invoking the stones here?

What would that sound like?  Do they all know Psalm 118?  Would we recognize the words?  Would it sound beautiful and scary to us, the way the crowds sounded to those Pharisees?

 

Since our earliest days as Christians, Lent has been a time of preparation, of being intentionally formed into more faithful disciples.  Easter was originally when we baptized new members into the body of Christ and in the very beginning that was after 3 years of preparation.  One of our United Methodist liturgical scholars called Lent of year 3 “the home stretch” – after “three years of learning how to pray, how to listen to and learn from scripture, how to care for the poor, the sick, and the orphans, how to care for and advocate for the needs of older persons, and how to overcome addictive patterns in their lives…” (Taylor Burton-Edwards, 3/20/13).  Maybe some of you working on 4-year degrees can relate a bit to that kind of a home stretch.  It’s a long time to be focused on one life-changing goal.  It’s a long time to submit yourself to transformation and refining.

Some things take a long time and it’s hard to see what has happened until later.  Like becoming less human one moment at a time until you wake up and find you are a cockroach.  Or becoming more Christ-like one prayer at a time, one verse at a time, one relationship at a time, one visited prisoner at a time…  Some things take a long time.  Like water dripping onto stone, wearing it away drop by drop over hundreds and thousands of years.

Or like stones being formed in the first place.

One of my favorite songs is by Beth Nielsen Chapman and it’s called “Sand and Water.”  It’s from her album of the same name, written in her grief after her husband died way too young.  Her voice is a little shaky and vulnerable as she describes the shifting sands of life after his death, the crashing waves of grief, the difficulty in finding a solid place to land or stand.  But the chorus goes like this:  “Solid stone is just sand and water…and a million years gone by.”  Some things take a long time, maybe even a million years.

Maybe the stones know something we don’t.

It’s interesting to me that the stones are quiet in this story.  Jesus warns that if the people are hushed the stones will speak up.  That would imply that they are fully able to speak up and ready to praise.  Are they waiting for that moment, then?  Do they hear that the people have it covered so they’re just lying low for now?  I find myself thinking Hey, stones, Jesus is only coming by this way once, so if you’re going to join in the praises, you’d better pipe up.  But when it takes “a million years gone by” to exist, perhaps your perspective isn’t human.  Perhaps you have patience and vision that we humans don’t have access to yet.

One of my favorite writers is Annie Dillard and one of my favorite essays of hers is called “Teaching a Stone to Talk,” in a book by the same name (pp.67-76).  Annie Dillard is a novelist, essayist, professor, nature-lover, and friend of God.  In “Teaching a Stone to Talk” she tells the story of a man she once knew named Larry who was, truly, attempting to teach a stone to talk.  Dillard commends Larry in this, his life’s work recognizing his sacrifice and devotion, recognizing how much we long to hear from the rest of creation and how much we doubt that anything is being said.

She writes:

It is difficult to undo our own damage, and to recall to our presence that which we have asked to leave.  It is hard to desecrate a grove and change your mind.  The very holy mountains are keeping mum.  We doused the burning bush and cannot rekindle it; we are lighting matches in vain under every green tree.  Did the wind used to cry, and the hills shout forth praise?  Now speech has perished from among the lifeless things of earth, and living things say very little to very few.  Birds may crank out sweet gibberish and monkeys howl; horses neigh and pigs say, as you recall, oink, oink.  But so do cobbles rumble when a wave recedes, and thunders break the air in lightning storms.  I call these noises silence.  It could be that wherever there is motion there is noise, as when a whale breaches and smacks the water – and wherever there is stillness there is the still small voice, God’s speaking from the whirlwind, nature’s old song and dance, the show we drove from town.  …At a certain point you say to the woods, to the sea, to the mountains, the world, Now I am ready.  Now I will stop and be wholly attentive.  You empty yourself and wait, listening…We are here to witness…

I don’t know if Jesus meant that the stones would literally shout out praises or not.  But I believe he meant what he said.  I believe he meant that we aren’t the only ones who recognize the presence of God.  Surely these stones would cry out.  All of creation is part of this story and – silent or not – all of creation witnesses and praises along with us.  If need be, instead of us.

The arc of God’s story arc is long and we are somewhere in the middle of it all, thinking that 3 years is a long time to wait to be baptized.  We aren’t the first, we won’t be the last, and we aren’t the only ones right now.  The stones may be silent but they are biding their time.  Jesus is passing by today, on his way to scarier territory this week.  It’ll be tempting to stand here full of praise and then to stay here empty-handed, remembering the parade.  Don’t.

Follow where he goes, praising, silent, faithful.  Trust that the journey is longer than you know or think you can stand.  Keep following.  Trust that out of simple things like sand and water, God can make stone.  Out of a simple thing like dust, God makes you.  Submit yourself to transformation and refining, to the stony path of discipleship.  Know that whatever you did or didn’t do for Lent is one drop on the hard surface of your heart.  There will be others.  And know that you have all the time in the world to cry out in praise.

Thanks be to God!

In Which Jesus Gives a Flying Fig

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Sermon on Luke 13: 1-9   |  3 March 2013 – Lent 3

Apparently fig trees are like the scrappy underdogs of the tree world.  They have “aggressive root systems” that do whatever they have to do in order to find water and nutrients in the rocky, arid Middle Eastern soil where they grow wild.  These aggressive roots have a strong need for groundwater and will find it deep down, if it isn’t readily available from rainfall or surface water.   Fig trees can tolerate drought and make do in nutritionally poor soil, though they have been cultivated since ancient times and thrive with just a little tending (Wikipedia, “Common Fig” entry as of 3/1/13).

If fig trees wrote psalms, you could imagine one of them writing Psalm 63:  O God, you are my God, I seek you, my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water (Psalm 63: 1).  I can make do with this rocky, dry, marrowless soil, but, God, I could really use you right about now.  I am holding on for dear life.  Can you come by here?

Don’t you think the fig tree wanted to bear fruit?

The one that Jesus tells about in the parable.  It had been fruitless for 3 years and though the tree’s owner wanted to get rid of it, the gardener intervened.  The gardener said, Give me a year with it.  See what happens when I dig up this hard, dry, compacted soil and add some fertilizer.  Wait another year and see what happens (Luke 13:6-8).

This is what happens.  Figs!  I’m going to pass them around so you can taste and see what we are talking about, so you can literally take it in.  This delicious, chewy, nutritious, surprising fruit is what comes from a place that just last year seemed lifeless and beyond hope.  Please keep passing them around – don’t be shy.

A fig tree is made to bear fruit.  That’s its purpose.  That’s the goal of its existence.  It’s important to remember that:  the parable is not about getting an apple tree or a pine tree to bear figs.  It is not about expecting something impossible.  It is not about expecting the tree to be anything more or less than what it is.

Again, I ask:  Don’t you think the fig tree wanted to bear fruit?  Its whole purpose is to make figs.  It’s not confused about its purpose.  It is not trying to write a novel instead.  It is probably trying to work itself up to a fig.  But for whatever reasons – drought, poor soil, neglect – it hasn’t been able to muster a single fig.  For 3 years.

It can be a little trickier for us to figure out our “fruit.”  What am I meant to bear or produce, that will show that I am fulfilling my purpose?  What is the goal of my existence?  How many years have I been fruitless and when is the nice gardener going to show up and help me out a little?  How much time do I have – gulp – before it’s Zero Fruit Thirty?

Even when you know your major or you are a fabulous fourth year “coasting” towards May with a job offer clinched, the fruit question can linger.  Is this what I am supposed to be doing?  How does this degree or job allow me to live out my calling as a disciple?  Is my whole purpose –  my whole fruitfulness in life –  measured by my work?  If not, how else do I engage in fruitful living?

Asking questions like these is your first step to bearing fruit, to living out of your purpose.  Remember that the fig tree had been fruitless for 3 years already?  And fig trees know what their purpose is!  For 3 years, this fig tree sat withering and suffering and not fulfilling its purpose, probably writing something like Psalm 63 while it waited for that gardener to finally show up and give it some help and encouragement.

Who knows what went on in the mind of the fig tree during that long wait, but you can imagine it, can’t you?  You can imagine working and striving and feeling a little lost and feeling pretty parched and wondering if God is paying attention.  Can’t you?

During times like that it can be tempting to look for signs.  That’s what the first part of tonight’s reading from Luke is about.  Were those Galileans who Pilate killed worse sinners than the other Galileans?  Is that why God allowed that to happen? (vv. 1-2).  It’s tempting but Jesus rejects this line of thinking.  He brings up another tragic event, when people were  crushed under a falling tower and he also rejects that as evidence of God’s wrath.   To questions about events like these, he says, No, that’s not how God behaves.  The lesson from those events is that life is fragile and unpredictable and the best path to fruitfulness is to repent – turn around – and go in the direction of God  (Luke vv. 1-5 and People’s New Testament Commentary p.231).

You might say that Jesus does give a flying fig.  Because after he’s gotten all that straightened out, he tells the parable about the fig tree.  Fig trees don’t wait for signs.  They use all of their energy to make figs.  And when they don’t have enough energy left for that, they wait – sometimes for a long, long time – for a gardener who knows his way around fig trees.

We don’t like that part, either, do we?  The waiting for a long, long time part.  The waiting while we are thirsty beyond our own abilities to quench our thirst.  The waiting when we are not sure what we are waiting for….Am I waiting to become an engineer?  A parent?  A volunteer at the homeless shelter?  The fig tree got at least 4 years to come up with some figs – 3 years plus the year ahead with the gardener’s help.  Hmmmm….What else takes 4 years?  College, anyone?

How much pressure do you put on yourself to have it all figured out by the time you get your degree?  Don’t you think we get at least as long as a fig tree?

And when the wait is over and the gardener finally shows up, it is still “up to the tree itself to feast on this extended care [it receives]”  It’s not like the fig tree can just put its feet up and wait for figs to be brought to it and placed on its branches.  The God-given work of a fig tree is to work with the God-given gardener to make figs out of itself, to bear fruit.  I don’t know how long you get to become fruitful but “[t]he parable is just as clear about the gracious intervention of the gardener as it is about the possible one-year deadline if no improvement is found” (General Board of Discipleship “Lectionary Planning” pages as of 3/1/13).  In other words, God is on our side.  God made us for fruitful living and God does not leave us to our own devices  either to figure out what fruit we are called to produce or to come up with it entirely on our own.

Neither is God inclined to thwart our fruit-producing abilities.  God wants our lives to bear fruit.  God sends the Gardener Jesus to give us some extra help.  You are not meant to do this alone, with no resources, endlessly relying on poor conditions and your own reserves.  You are scrappier than you think you are and God, with a trowel and some gardening clogs, is  just waiting to dig in and help you grow, thrive, bear fruit.  But you have to be part of it.  You have to do something, too.  You have to reach your aggressive roots as far as you can and take the life-giving assistance you find.

I don’t know that our deadline is a year from now but I do know that we all have deadlines.  Towers fall, cancer grows, floods rise.  Life is shorter than we think and a lot of things are out of our control.  But at each and every moment of life we are moving closer to God or further away.  Closer bears fruit.  Every time.  And you can repent/turn around/move closer even when you are still asking questions about what kind of fruit tree you are, and even when you are dying of thirst and writing psalms to God in the desert.

I know you want to produce fruit.  Like the fig tree, you are aching for it.  If that is all the path you have right now, then go with the ache.  It will take you where you need to go.  It will take you through and beyond the places that seem lifeless and purposeless.  It will take you closer and closer to God.  Go with that ache to be fruitful.  Who knows what delicious morsel your life will yield by this time next year?

Thanks be to God!

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photo credit: ©  2005 Anthony Majanlahti, CC BY 2.0

Mama Jesus or Jesus Is My Chicken

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Sermon on Luke 13: 31-35   |  24 February 2013 – Lent

I am completely fine with it if all you walk away with tonight is the thought that Jesus is your chicken.

It’s a gift from Jesus himself, this image of him as a mother hen and us as his baby chicks in need of protection.  It’s an exclamation of longing, Jesus’ longing for us to come to him, to nestle into the warm safe place under his wing.  Why don’t we use this divine chicken language more often?

He’s talking with his disciples and a few Pharisees approach to warn him that Herod wants to kill him.  Jesus says, Go tell that fox Herod that I am busy casting out demons today and tomorrow and on the third day, too.  But then I’m on my way from here (Luke 13: 31-33).  Does that sound familiar to you – “third day”?  It’s supposed to.  It’s for us, the readers, and it’s supposed to remind us that Jesus was crucified and then, on the third day, resurrected.  It’s a way of saying that Herod’s plan will eventually work – but so will God’s.  The third day is when the story makes sense and God has the final word.

Anyway, Jesus tells the Pharisees that that old fox Herod will just have to wait for that day and while he’s in the middle of going over all the days and his plans for prophecy and healing, he mentions that he’ll be killed in Jerusalem eventually.  And then, at the mere mention of the name Jerusalem, he completely sidetracks himself, like a lover who hears the name of his long-gone beloved, like a mother yearning for her children.  He stops addressing the Pharisees, and talks to Jerusalem instead.  He blurts out, with pain and longing, “Jerusalem, Jerusalem, the city that kills the prophets and stones those who are sent to it!  How often have I desired to gather your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings, and you were not willing!” (Luke 13: 34).

I mentioned to y’all last week that my dad grew up on a farm.  I called him this week as I was working with this passage.  For those of us who haven’t been around chickens that much, there isn’t much to go on here.  Jesus wants to gather us up under his wing.  I wondered how often chickens do this and in what circumstances so I called to see what my dad could tell me about chickens.  He said, “They’re dirty and they poop a lot.”  When I explained why I was asking and reminded him of the story he said, “Any time it’s raining or overcast or the weather seems bad in any way, that’s what the hen does.  She opens up her wings wide and shelters her chicks.  She does it when she’s trying to hatch eggs, too.  Just completely covers them up in her feathers.”

Since before the eggs are hatched, the hen is mothering them, sheltering them, protecting them.  When the fuzzy little chicks are running around the barnyard in inclement weather she flaps open her broad mama wings and calls them back home again.  This is the image Jesus applies to himself.  It’s not like he was in a debate and got called a chicken and then made the best of it, bending the image to suit his own purposes.  He starts the whole thing.  He refers to Herod as a fox – sly, cunning, clever, a thief, chicken-hungry – and then continues the metaphor by calling himself the mother hen.

I am pretty sure that if any one of us in this room were writing the lines for Jesus, we would have chosen something fierce and fox-eating.  Herod’s a fox, but I have a taste for fox meat, Jesus retorted.  I’m an eagle/wolf/panther!  Not a vulnerable mother animal with babies to protect.  And if it had to be a mother with babies don’t you think we would have gone all mama bear on him?  But Jesus gives us a chicken.  Unglamorous, somewhat comical, not strong or fast.  An ordinary squawking barnyard mama chicken.

Jesus is our chicken.

Barbara Brown Taylor, the Episcopal priest and writer who lives on a farm in north Georgia and, I believe, has chickens there, has some insight on this image Jesus gives us.  She says (originally “As a Hen Gathers Her Brood” in The Christian Century, 1995, referenced online, 2/19/13),

If the city were filled with hardy souls, this would not be a dangerous situation. Unfortunately, it is filled with pale yellow chicks and at least one fox. In the absence of a mother hen, some of the chicks have taken to following the fox around. Others are huddled out in the open where anything with claws can get to them. Across the valley, a white hen with a gold halo around her head is clucking for all she is worth. Most of the chicks cannot hear her, and the ones that do make no response. They no longer recognize her voice. They have forgotten who they are.

If you have ever loved someone you could not protect, then you understand the depth of Jesus’ lament. All you can do is open your arms. You cannot make anyone walk into them. Meanwhile, this is the most vulnerable posture in the world –wings spread, breast exposed — but if you mean what you say, then this is how you stand.

They no longer recognize her voice.  They have forgotten who they are – who their mother is.  Jerusalem, Jerusalem!  How often I have yearned to gather you up underneath my wings…but you were not willing.

Remember what I said last week about trying to do everything ourselves?  It would be tempting to rewrite this image and claim Jesus the panther as the one who protects us.  It would be tempting to try to protect the chicken herself, since she is so flappy and foolish-seeming.  It would be tempting to follow someone else or to fashion some other sort of god who better suits our needs, rather than accepting this Savior who turns the other cheek and embraces sinners and tax collectors and prostitutes, and who leads the way through death.  It is tempting to long for God to be more like we think God should be.

Remember Jesus, poised on the hill above Jerusalem?  Remember the moment when he interrupts his own train of thought to blurt out with messy love and longing Jerusalem, Jerusalem?  That’s the God we get – one who is thoroughly familiar with longing and who, despite all of the ways we little chicks go off running in the wrong direction, continues to emphatically yearn for us to come back and snuggle under his wing.  You want a different image, a different kind of god?  God gets that – God had something different in mind for us, too.

And you were not willing….we were not willing.  We go off half-cocked, like chickens with their heads…well, you get the point.  We like the stealth and sleek fox.  We admire his clever cunning.  We are easily lured into thinking he won’t hurt us, that we are exempt from his voracious appetite for chicken meat.  That’s how we start to think when Mama Jesus seems too exposed and vulnerable, too chickeny.  How can we give our lives to someone like that?  If not a panther, what about the fox then?  How are we supposed to build our lives around the one who just stands there, open, jugular exposed, loving us like that?

How can we not?

We know that love is stronger than death.  We know what happens on the third day.  It ought to be easier for us to build a life around this than it was for Jerusalem, living before the tale was told.  But it’s not, is it?

It makes no difference.  It has always been and is still very hard to live this way.  It’s why God keeps calling us, longing for us to come back to that embrace, where we can remember who we are again.  Living after this tale has been told makes no difference in how hard this is for us.  But it also makes no difference to God; it makes no difference in how God loves us.  The same God who stood with tears and longing on the hill opposite Jerusalem, calling our names with arms open wide, is the one who is doing that right now.  For you.

This is the God we follow.  This is the God who is our home.  This is the God who persists and perseveres in loving us, no matter how unlovable we sometimes are, no matter how stubborn, no matter how much we would rather be loved by a panther.

Jesus is your chicken but you can turn your back on Mama Jesus’ longing and try to follow or fend off the fox and the rain solo.  Or you can run as fast as your teeny chick legs will go into that embrace.  It’s raining but under those feathers it’s warm and dry and feels like home.  Like Mom.

Thanks be to God!